Surreal

Being on this infertility journey has become surreal for me. Sometimes I can't even believe we've been trying for this long and other times, it seems like it's flown by. I know there's couples who have been trying much longer than us, but as we finish this 14th cycle, I honestly start to question if it will ever happen.

There's so many girls I know that have gotten pregnant and delivered in the time we've been trying. I think that's when it really hits me. I think, "oh, if I had gotten pregnant on that cycle, I'd be delivering now", etc. But the sad truth is that I'm no closer to having a baby then I was last July when we started trying. In fact, I may even be farther away. I've lost that excitement and I pretty much go into every cycle feeling like there's no hope. It's a terrible way to live and I want to change it. Sigh.