Surreal

Being on this infertility journey has become surreal for me. Sometimes I can't even believe we've been trying for this long and other times, it seems like it's flown by. I know there's couples who have been trying much longer than us, but as we finish this 14th cycle, I honestly start to question if it will ever happen.

There's so many girls I know that have gotten pregnant and delivered in the time we've been trying. I think that's when it really hits me. I think, "oh, if I had gotten pregnant on that cycle, I'd be delivering now", etc. But the sad truth is that I'm no closer to having a baby then I was last July when we started trying. In fact, I may even be farther away. I've lost that excitement and I pretty much go into every cycle feeling like there's no hope. It's a terrible way to live and I want to change it. Sigh. 

Codonopsis Pilosulae Radix?!?!

If you couldn't tell from the title, my fertility herbs came in the mail last week! Reading the ingredient list of the Chinese herbs is a bit like taking a foreign language. Here are some pics of the lovely smelling herbs I will be consuming for 29 days. I mix 5 scoops at a time into water or hot tea to consume.

I have a Follicular formula that I take for 15 days (twice a day) and then I switch to a Luteal phase formula for 14 days (also twice a day).  The herbalist said I should O before finishing the follicular formula, but if I don't, then the switch will more than likely make me O. Fingers crossed!

The herbs are also supposed to make my egg quality better and the herbalist wants me to continue charting during the herbs so I can see exactly when I O and if it has any effect on my charts. I will also still be getting acu a few times this cycle as well.

I'm feeling confident that these herbs can definitely help in getting me KU by leveling out my hormones, as well as making my O stronger and better. We shall see!